I just want you to know who I am

And I'd give up forever to touch you

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

my small world, far away from your perfect one

Tuesday, May 06, 2008

hmmm i see that yep, this blog seems as dead as i am i guess

i dunno suddenly it struck me that i need to question myself

why am i alive?

why do i deserve to live?

why can't i seem to get there, where i want to, no matter how hard i try?

why do i have to die trying every single time?

why does life have so much bitterness to offer me?

why do i keep running away?

why do i bother with this anyway?

why do i always disappoint myself and others?

why do the others count more than myself?

why can't i, for once in my life, let go?

I know why

i'm scared. of who i am. and what i'm becoming.

its a scary feeling, trying to figure out how to cry on a blog.

then you realise, the lives here are as cold as the supposedly caring shoulders to cry on who're supposed to be there for you.

its a wonder how humans can watch a fragile heart break, regard it with fear, fascination and scorn, eat their heart out and give a gloating apologetic smile. makes us sound worse than carnivores, but it happens all the time.

what do we do?

we just shrug. look at the poor, tired and broken soul, something that's died triying and has even tried dying to bolster the diappointments of the world. we shrug again. get up and move on, dear.
that's life. live with it. or get out.

then you realise why you can't cry on a blog.
the tears don't come.

[x] i'm still waiting for you
Tuesday, May 06, 2008

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryinâ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

i'm slipping off the edge

i'm hanging by a thread

i wanna start this over again.