I just want you to know who I am

And I'd give up forever to touch you

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

my small world, far away from your perfect one

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

I wrote a song, I wish i could put a tune to it. I wish i could play the guitar and softly strum (not tuneless crashing and banging) these tears away. But I can't. And my heart'll be empty.

Maybe - Lyrics by Evelyn

Its time to move on,
There's an open door
You've been so broken,
You just can't endure,
And then the life in your eyes,
Slipped away,
Maybe.

He won't come back -
Never needed you.
You're an empty hole,
And you've been run through,
When the dagger of his eyes,
Pierced you,
Maybe.

Maybe
Someday you'll find
A reason
to let go of...

Everything you though he'd be
All the smiles and the mysteries
Every little word he spoke
All lies, made of empty smoke
He laughed,
You cried,
You drowned,
You died.
And now the smoke,
Its killing you,
Its filling you,
And choking you.

Your heart is empty,
And your soul seems dead.
And you cried and prayed,
Till your heart bled,
And the song in your heart,
Died away,
Maybe.

Maybe
Someday you'll find
A reason
to let go of...

Everything you though he'd be
All the smiles and the mysteries
Every little word he spoke
All lies, made of empty smoke
He laughed,
You cried,
You drowned,
You died.
And now the smoke,
Its killing you,
Its filling you,
And choking you.

Everything you'd ever dreamed about
Ended in this sand of drought
All the love, all the nameless joy
All fake, 'cos you're just a toy
He laughed,
You cried,
You drowned,
You died.
And now this life,
Its killing you,
Its filling you,
And choking you.

And Maybe
Someday you'll find
A reason to forgive,
To move one, to let it go
A reason to live,
And that someday will come,
When you will meet the one,
And you you'll be so glad
Because you lived.

I really do wish I could put a tune to it, and I will, someday, when my heartsong returns. My heartsong will come, and what's better, he'll know to sing it, I know he will.

I've lost enough.
I can't lose anymore
Please Lord, no more

PS: i will not be killing myself anytime soon though =)
...its sad though...
some people kill themselves cos they find no reason to live;
others find a reason to live nanoseconds before they die.
why?

[x] i'm still waiting for you
Wednesday, August 15, 2007

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryinâ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

i'm slipping off the edge

i'm hanging by a thread

i wanna start this over again.