I just want you to know who I am

And I'd give up forever to touch you

Cause I know that you feel me somehow

You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be

And I don't want to go home right now

And all I can taste is this moment

And all I can breathe is your life

Cause sooner or later it's over

I just don't want to miss you tonight

I don't want the world to see me

Cause I don't think that they'd understand

When everything's made to be broken

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am

my small world, far away from your perfect one

Thursday, September 28, 2006

I went shopping today
Guess what's on my shopping list?
Here it is:
1) Shampoo
2) Milo 3 in 1 Packets
3) Some weird juice
4) Japanese seaweed
If you haven't noticed by now, this isn't an ordinary teenager's shopping list. It is in fact, the shopping list of a person left to fend for herself in a cold and bleak place far away from home, far away from her parents and loved ones, far away from her heart. When I go around picking the mundane groceries, I realise that my class mates are probably haing out at LV or some other shockingly expensive place. then i remember the fun i had with my family when we went grocery shopping, the completely carefree time where i enjoyed picking the most absurd cereal flavors that still make my brother wince. I realise, I'm neither part of this world nor that. I can never dream of blowing hundreds of dollars on an over-priced bag.
And yet grocery shopping goes on at home, pretty well I'm sure, without me.
And there i go, drowning in self pity again...
Melancholic laughter is the only fitting thing at this point of time.
I wonder if anybody sees the pain in my eyes as i type this.
I wonder if anybody sees past this happy and bubbly facade into the sad and lonely girl inside.
I wonder if anybody even cares.
Angry welts spring up within me,
Disappointment haunts my soul,
Everything my heart has ever wished for,
Suddenly seems to have a hole.

[x] i'm still waiting for you
Thursday, September 28, 2006

I'm standing on the bridge
I'm waiting in the dark
I thought that you'd be here by now
There's nothing but the rain
No footsteps on the ground
I'm listening but there's no sound

Isn't anyone tryinâ to find me?
Won't somebody come take me home?

It's a damn cold night
Trying to figure out this life
Won't you take me by the hand
Take me somewhere new
I don't know who you are
But I... I'm with you
I'm with you

i'm slipping off the edge

i'm hanging by a thread

i wanna start this over again.